The reason I started to blog was that I felt someone, somewhere may have answers to my specific questions and at the same time, someone, somewhere may find some answers here.
First let me discuss a real tough one. What motivates one to do more in life? Simple answer is ambition. But I have been through that. Never felt its call. In fact, to the contrary, felt ambition could bring disappointment, envy, greed and other unwanted side effects and hence, never lit the fire in the belly. Just floated along. Now I find it hard to stay motivated. I would rather just Stop and Go Home – wherever that is.
Life, however, does not allow us to do that. We have ‘responsibilities’. Bills to pay. So we just shut up and carry on. Just a wild yell into the beyond, anyone out there who truly loves life? I mean who is content with the small interludes of happiness it provides in what seems like endless drudgery.
As I write this, I feel fear that even this may get taken away from me for not being grateful. Badly need a belief. I have nullified the concept of a thinking feeling God to a force. This has led me into the ground where I think nothing or nobody is in charge. Is there really anybody out there who can respond to this discussion? Somebody who will not make me join a group or a religion to understand?
The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation. - Henry David Thoreau
